Paris….I’m definitely in love!
love love! I have returned to my love of all things french.. I took a brief break from berets and baguettes (well maybe not baguettes..)…Frehel has been playing in my car for the last several days and I have decided its time for a Paris adventure.
source: Beth Quinn Designs
i can’t choose the best title. and my heart beats so fast, oh no i can’t explain it more to you, i don’t know what happen with myself now. i don’t know, oh really.
since i knew you, I’ve changed. I just can keep my big secret deeply alone but i like it. i just can keep my strange dream alone. haha
oh no… my fingers feel like can’t type any words. suddenly it is like being frozen when i remember your face, your smile, your style, and your photo exactly.
i can’t stop admire you till now. although we never meet. i can’t describe how glad i am when i know that you are being here now! when i see your photos in this country. same country with me.
i know you will not read my post. i know that i have a big dream about you. you have to know i always think about you, you have to know that i always say your name in my mind. you have to know that i always think when will you know me, when will we meet, or when will i get your e-mail or everything about you.
and i always think that i am a beast for you. i am not match, not fit. we are so different at all, you are like the blue sky, beautiful star. but me? i am like a dusty land, like an non-shining planet. if you are a mercury so i am a Pluto because we have a very far distance.
you don’t know that i wanna tell everything to you. you don’t know that i wanna be your friend, i wanna be your good friend. i will always be there. i always imagine that you are a good one, you are the best one.
Maybe someday God will permit us to meet. it’s not impossible, it’s possible, really possible. because i know God will answer my prayer, every prayer about my dream, my ambition I’m sure God will answer it. and i’m sure God will answer my prayer to be met with you.
if God permit it, would you be my friend? :)
it’s just about my opinion~my problem
oh hi there!! you are reading my post. i am confused now. i have a problem with my mom. i just caught her mean wrongly, yeah i am too frighten to tell it. but you can call it big trouble.
oh yeah, you know i wanna be part of SMUKI or SMANDEL. but my mother wants me to be 78’s student or 68’s student. it’s okay but i think my mother doesn’t consider my choices. i don’t know.
but now my task is just study hard, but then i still face new problem. how can i start it? i mean what lesson should be the first? i don’t know.
can you give me advice what lesson should be done by me?
and then i understood
now… i know, she is a perfect girl. inside my heart, i am crying. why i can’t be like her, yes i know. she is good at that part but you have to know that she is good at everything. she is smart, she is good at speech, she can plays piano, she is beauty.
and it’s my new lesson. i try to upgrade (like fanny said) my talent. Oya *it’s her name* has done it, how about me? I’m trying now :)
and then i knew
few days ago, i saw my friend’s photos. she was in Seoul, South Korea. it made me thinks twice till now. how can? finally i found the answer just now. because she is really genius so that all of smart students from Indonesia were accumulated to join ACGS (till now i don’t find the meaning of that abbreviation). it’s about a student camp about science. so maybe it is like study tour for 9 days at South Korea.
The students who joined that camp are from International School, so i can conclude that one of the requirement is “you are from International school and have wide knowledge about English.” actually my friend is from international public school. she is at International Class, i know her good enough. because i had met her in her school.
the one that want to be talked is not about that camp, how great it was or how cool they are, or how beautiful Korea is. but… it’s about me. have i been like her? have i been changed? we are very different at all. she’s an independent girl, she’s a smart girl, she’s good at English, she can do everything, and she’s friendly girl.
the first point wanna be talked by me. i am really not A CONFIDENCE GIRL. and now i regret it, why don’t i start to be a confidence girl? i always think that i have a lot of lacks of all so that i am ashamed. not like her, she’s beauty, smart, and etc. but than i know why can she become so perfect for me. because she is confidence, why don’t i become like her? my heart always whispers to me “hey nggi, don’t be ashamed. no one will kill you or throw as if you are a rubbish.”
and then i knew, that i have to be an confidence girl so that i won’t regret at my future. i can’t do anything without confidence. i need it, and i always need it. don’t be frightened if you do a mistake. it really helps to be better time by time.
you have to change nggi! yes you have. i believe you can :) help me to be a confidence girl, and help me to be a brave girl. i love you all
life doesn’t need many things, life just needs responsibility
anggi anggi mulai pelupa kau yaa *menampar diri
duh bodohnya saya lupa hari ini ada LES!!! >.< CUKUP KESEL ARGH
if there was time machine i would tell her that our friendship will be break in the future
phebe anggita g